What's been happening
Posted: 04 Jul 2016, 08:24
I don't know why but I'm up at 4:15 AM crying. It's been a rough few weeks for me, and I just wanted to let everyone know I might need a break from all the stress and depression.
I've been getting in a lot of fights with my grandmother and my friends and it's just making me upset and depressed. Each time I go to my grandmothers, all the depression builds up because my father has said things that don't really need to be said, and it's only torn me up.
Since my kindergarten years up until now I've been bullied and called names, everyone hates me in my school and have all said they hope I die one summer. One of my friends used me to get in a relationship with another guy, and once she got into it, she told me she never wanted to be my friend, but had to be in order to date the guy she wanted.
Two weeks ago, I lost my best friend because she decided she was done with me after all we've been through. She stuck with me through my moments, but I guess she was just done. Since then, I've acted all cheerful and happy in chat but on the outside, I'm a complete mess.
I just need some time away so I don't drag everyone down, because I'd feel bad if I ever did. I know some of you will think this is just another lie or prank, but it's not. Its a rough time for me right now. All I've been doing at night is crying and wishing my life was easier.
I've been getting in a lot of fights with my grandmother and my friends and it's just making me upset and depressed. Each time I go to my grandmothers, all the depression builds up because my father has said things that don't really need to be said, and it's only torn me up.
Since my kindergarten years up until now I've been bullied and called names, everyone hates me in my school and have all said they hope I die one summer. One of my friends used me to get in a relationship with another guy, and once she got into it, she told me she never wanted to be my friend, but had to be in order to date the guy she wanted.
Two weeks ago, I lost my best friend because she decided she was done with me after all we've been through. She stuck with me through my moments, but I guess she was just done. Since then, I've acted all cheerful and happy in chat but on the outside, I'm a complete mess.
I just need some time away so I don't drag everyone down, because I'd feel bad if I ever did. I know some of you will think this is just another lie or prank, but it's not. Its a rough time for me right now. All I've been doing at night is crying and wishing my life was easier.